A few years back, prior to my Behcet’s diagnosis, I was having some serious GI issues. One of the concerns was gastric emptying, so my GI doctor ordered a gastric emptying study. At this point in time I’d had some major issues with constipation, as well as weird diarrhea even though imaging would show I was still constipated. That is a special level of fun, to be in the ER, massively struggling with diarrhea, while doctors remain confused because you’re clearly backed up on imaging. Anyhow, my new GI doctor was amazing, and ordered the study to see what my stomach was doing. During the study, the medical facility screwed up. Despite being told I couldn’t eat dairy, or gluten, they provided me with toast, milk, juice, two eggs, and some peaches. I hate peaches…but without them, I’d have only eaten juice and eggs. I choked don the peaches, eggs, and juice, and was told not to bother with the two pieces of toast, or the glass of milk. This wasn’t the proper protocol, because while they were checking to see how the eggs went through (they had the radioactive tracker on them), you’re still supposed to be measuring the gut emptying with all that stuff in it.
I had only eaten the eggs and some juice.
When they did the testing I wasn’t dealing with extensive symptoms, but I did test just over the time limit. (I think they said you got 90 minutes to empty your stomach, and I took 92 minutes.) The doctor said I had some mild gastroparesis, but was bothered by the fact I hadn’t eaten as much as they would usually feed patients. Sorry, but it definitely wasn’t my fault that I wasn’t fed things I could actually eat.
Now, years later, with my symptoms completely kicking my ass, the have definitely diagnosed me with gastroparesis, and the oh-so-fun issue of periodic intestinal dysmotility. What is that you say? Well, it’s period of time when my intestines decide they’re just not going to move effectively…or even at all.
You want to confuse the hell out of an ER doctor? Go in for abdominal pain, and watch their face when they realize you don’t have any bowel sounds. They tend to change stethoscopes, look at you with a smile and confused eyes, before finally realizing there is no sounds at all.
I’ve gotten used to living in this space where I’m just not hungry. Sometimes I’m even nauseas. During chemo I got breaks where the steroids would instigate hunger, and I was moving things along…but now I’m back to feeling gross and not having much motility. One day a week I’ll have a bunch of bowel movements; Sometimes I’m lucky and get a second day, so it’s less horrendous. I take medicine, both traditional and alternative, to help with the nausea and appetite issues…but this can lead to more problems.
When you eat, but you’re too slow to process the food, things get gross.
I definitely need to throw up right now, but once I start I can’t stop. All I’ve eaten today is two cups of cereal. The problem is I ate a lot of cereal yesterday, because my GI system had been moving the day before…but it has since stalled. Now everything I’ve eaten in the last 24 hours, is just sitting and it’s painful and nauseating. I made the mistake of giving into hunger rather than following the strict limits I know keep me from this level of pain. This morning I literally thought I’d ruptured something because I couldn’t stand straight. It was so bad I gave my dog to my roommate because I didn’t know if I could continue to walk him today and tonight.
On the 1st of December I’ll see my new GI doctor, and we can hopefully sort out treatment options. Personally I’d love to just swap to liquid food and not have to think about eating for enjoyment anymore. I just want to get adequate nutrition without having to think about it. We know a few things contribute, including a blocked celiac artery, and poor blood flow in general. I also have ulcerations that can tie things up. The diet I need to follow excludes so many nutrients, though. I would love to eat a salad. It sounds so insane, but I definitely miss salads!
Fresh fruits, fresh vegetables, meats, fried foods (except for french fries for some reason), dairy, and anything high in fiber? They’re all not tolerable. Fruits and vegetables are definitely the worst, and anything high in fiber.
Today will be spent sipping on water, enjoying my carafate, and wrapping my abdomen in a heating pad. My abdominal pain actually making me short of breath, and my eyes are watering because I’m trying so hard not to throw up. This is the reality of GI Behcet’s. I just hope I never have a rupture, or full obstruction. I’ve had a few partial obstructions, and pseudo-obstructions. I don’t go to the ER anymore unless the symptoms prevent me from urinating. Yes, I’ve been so blocked up, I couldn’t even pee. That was a horrible situation because the small town ER didn’t really know what to do with me. They kept giving me enemas, and all I was doing was bleeding as the enema liquid came out…I also was throwing up some gnarly stuff until I was dry heaving. That was enough to make me try to avoid the ER after that.
Keep your chin up folks. Even when you’ve had tubes shoved in horrible places, things go on. Today I’m grateful for the people who help me while I struggle. I’m grateful I found a free version of my textbook, at least I think. I’m grateful for my dogs. I’m grateful for friends who bring my dog home for Thanksgiving so he can be spoiled. I’m grateful to be crashing somewhere that doesn’t smell like my apartment smells.
Find the things you’re grateful for.